Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Angels walking around me all dressed up in people clothes...




All my life it seems I've been followed around by angels. All of them are dressed up as regular people, but I'm slowly learning to not let that fool me.

The very first one I encountered in mortality was an angel called Dr. Spendlove. Mom's regular doctor was out of town when I decided it was time to make my entrance, so Doc Spendlove showed up to deliver me. The sixth child of nine, and the first they let Dad be in the room to see delivered, I threw them a curve ball. I came out with my cord all wrapped around my neck three times. Doctor Spendlove knew just what to do and quickly went about his business keeping me alive.

I must have really like the excitement of that experience seeing as how a few short weeks later I was sleeping peacefully on the seat in the back of my parents van on a shopping trip and Dad had to slam the brakes on quite hard to avoid an accident. After stopping, he jumped from the van to begin a frantic search for my small body. My mom had been thrown around too, seat belts weren't a big thing back in 1976, and I ended up underneath of her. Dad grabbed me out, certain I was dead, but I was pretty tired and slept through the whole thing. I think maybe this time my angel parents had a little help from angels on the other side of the veil as well.

Several other experiences come to mind as I scroll through the events of my life up to this point: My angel brother sticking up for me in school, my little angel sister Melody furiously riding her bicycle to the shop to tell my parents I'd had an accident on my bike, getting them there in time to see me taken away in an ambulance. My angel trainer on mission abandoning our morning study and taking me on a walk when she could see I was so homesick this was what I needed most. All the many, MANY angels who took care of my infant daughter over the six month period of sickness when I spent a couple months in the hospital fighting to stay on this earth so I could raise my baby myself. Especially my little angel sister Penny, who quit her job in Utah and moved to Oregon and set up residence in our tiny house to take care of Rachel so Denver could spend his time in the hospital with me. Other angels who brought in meals and did so much other selfless service for my family during this time. My angel husband, for never leaving my side through the entire ordeal. We celebrated our first anniversary in that hospital (that's another blog post all by itself!). I have a picture of him fast asleep on a VERY uncomfortable chair turned bed, I treasure this picture. It reminds me of how much I am loved by this angel I get to call my husband.

Three nights ago, on 16 July, I took our thirteen year old daughter and we went shopping to grab a few things we needed to have her ready for Girl's Camp that started this morning. After two stores, we drove ten miles North to Riverdale where my angel sister Karlinda lives. She made two really fun rings for Lexi to give to her assigned "secret sister" while she was at camp. After visiting for quite awhile, we finally left. I don't remember ever getting in the car and driving away, but I did. You see, I'm a diabetic (a result of the above mentioned sickness when my pancreas blew up due to complications from pregnancy induced gall stones). When I got in my car and tried heading the car South to take us home, my blood sugars were in the twenties. I drove like a highly intoxicated person winding my way North, with my daughter in the seat next to me. I thought I was having a bad dream, I really did. All I remember is my daughter screaming and sobbing, police lights and someone giving me circular Nutter Butter cookies. I remember thinking I didn't know they came in any shape other than that of a peanut. I woke up from my nightmare to the unfortunately familiar sounds of machines beeping away in a hospital room. There by my bed was my angel husband, holding my hand looking terrified and angry all at the same time. At the foot of my bed was our Lou. I said to Denver, please tell me this is a nightmare, I was so certain it was and more than anything I didn't want it to be real. He assured me it was indeed very real.

He was at home with our four younger children, he'd just gotten the youngest to sleep and not long after the phone rang. It was Lexi, she was sobbing and frantic. She had taken my cell phone and called him. "Dad, Juanita's really tired or something. She's not making any sense and she's driving really horribly and almost ran into a concrete barrier in the middle of the road!" Denver knew exactly what was happening and told her I wasn't tired, I was low. He instructed her to make me stop the car exactly where we were and to take the keys from me so I couldn't drive off again. We were sitting at a red light and cycled through several red lights with Lou sobbing into the phone. No, she didn't know where we were. No, she couldn't find any sugar in the car or my purse. She'd seen a Maverik about a half mile back. After her dad telling her to take my purse and my keys and run as quickly as she could to the Maverik and buy a Sprite and run back to make me drink it, an angel pulled up behind us. This one was all dressed up in a police uniform and had his lights spinning (I remember the lights spinning). Lou gave the phone to the officer after my angel husband forcefully insisting that's what she do since she was having a hard time doing anything other than crying. After Denver explained to the officer what was happening, he jumped into action. He called a fellow officer who has a diabetic daughter and she rushed over to wherever we were with Nutter Butters she happened to have in her car. They called the paramedics and started trying to save my life. They took care of my daughter.

Denver put in a late night phone call to our angel neighbor who we all just call Heather. 12:15am and her phone rings. "No problem, I'll be right there." Denver got to the hospital right after Lou and I did (they let her choose, ride in the ambulance or in the police cruiser, she chose the ambulance). I'm so grateful to the angel (who's name I don't even know) who took my daughter aside and talked to her of her upcoming Girl's Camp and other things to get her mind off what was happening and calm her down. Thank you Heavenly Father, for all these angels you've placed around me.

When these swarms of angels were congregated around me, they tested my blood sugar and it registered at 22. That's SCARY low. By the time I got to the hospital it was 28. An hour later I was up to 71 and waking up. My bad dream, that I wasn't actually enjoying but was glad it was really just a dream, started getting real. See, my stomach wasn't feeling super great and I had some serious gas. I figured I was just dreaming anyway, so I didn't try to hold it in. When I asked Denver to tell me it was just a nightmare and he didn't, this was the first source of my humiliation. Shallow, I know. Then Lexi leaned over to hug me and tell me everything was okay, nobody was hurt and it hit me what happened. Gone were the cares of passing gas in public to be replaced by the horror of the knowledge I'd almost killed my daughter, my angel I call Lou. It's not easy to calm a mother down after facing knowledge like that, but eventually they did. My Lou climbed up into my hospital bed with me, lay down on my I.V. in my arm and snuggled up to me, each of us drawing comfort from the other.

Lou told me stories of how awful I was to the many angels who worked so hard to save my life. While they were trying to give me an I.V. I wasn't very appreciative of what they were doing. "You people! I don't like you people! You're all a bunch of crap piles!" I was mortified and profusely apologized to them. Really, I don't normally call anyone "crap piles." The hours spent in the ER of McKay Dee were very long but we didn't lack for entertainment listening to Lou laugh over everything she now found so funny. Thank goodness kids are so resilient!

By 3:30am we were all home and in our own beds. Heather, grabbing what sleep she could before she had to work in the morning and then get her kids to church. Denver and I before we had to wake up and prepare our lessons we had put off preparing until then that we had to teach in church in too few hours. I was scared to let myself fall asleep. I lay awake in wonder at how blessed I am to be surrounded by so many angels no matter where I go. Good friends, perfect strangers and my husband and children. I am blessed. I am alive. I have angels walking around me all dressed up in people clothes.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

When routine goes terribly wrong...

I took Ammon in to have his tonsils removed on the morning of April 11th, just five short days after he turned three. He decided to stop breathing and the nurses couldn't revive him after surgery. The docs had to rush him back into the OR and revive him there. What followed was an emotionally and physically exhausting stay in the hospital. I spent most of the night holding the oxygen over his mouth and nose and fighting to gethim to take some pain meds. His night nurse was not very nice AT ALL after I told her the doctor had mistakenly prescribed the wrong pain killer and I didn't want my son having anymore. I told her she needed to wake the doctor up and get the orders changed to the correct kind, until then we would do with Tylenol. That didn't go over too well. But Ammon was doing much better by mid morning on Tuesday, so Denver and Enoch came to get us and bring us home. The wheel chair was a hit with both boys. :) Thank you to my Heavenly Father for letting me keep my boy. Thank you to my husband for being worthy to give him a Priesthood blessing that I know kept him here with us. Thank you!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Just found some old pictures.

Friday, February 4, 2011

You might want to leave now.

Before school this morning I was rushing the girls to get them ready in time (I was planning on keeping them home today, they both begged to go). Natalie was, as usual, taking about thirty minutes to eat half of a TINY bowl of cereal, she was still in her jammies. Rachel was completely ready. Rachel went to the bathroom to put on lip gloss and make faces at herself in the mirror (a habit she's enjoying more and more). When Nattie was FINALLY finished with her cereal I told her to come over and I'd hurry and dress her and fix her hair. Her response: "Mom, I really need to go poop first." Oh my STARS!!! Anyone even slightly familiar with Natalie's routine knows this involves a MINIMUM of 10 minutes in the bathroom, singing LOUDLY. She likes to make up random songs to go along with her bowel movements. I was frustrated by her un-timely need to "go poop." They were the ones who wanted to go to school after all, why did I need to suffer trying to get them there on time? I can't in good conscience tell her she can't use the bathroom, so I let her go. She walked up the stairs and opened the door, then I heard her say to Rachel "You might want to leave now." I forgot about getting them to school on time, as this would just stress me out and turn me into a "Monster Mom." Besides, even if they did end up being late (which they didn't), it was totally worth it to hear that. :D

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Pray for Dad


Today was day eleven. We got told biopsy results would take seven to ten days. What they meant was eleven. Give them eleven days to make us wait and then call with devastating news. Day eleven. Dad has cancer. I don't like day eleven. I've never so strongly hated one tiny word, cancer. I sat sobbing into the phone while Dad tried comforting me, backwards really, unless you know Dad. That's what I keep thinking, this world truly is a better place because he's in it, so I'll just keep praying for him to get to stay. Pray for Dad. Pray for Dad.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Trip up the canyon for FHE















































































This could be a problem...

Ammon was pushing his truck around the kitchen and got stuck under the stool, it was too cute not to take a picture. He's wearing the little outfit I got for he and Enoch to wear home from the hospital, they're so close together in age that I was easily able to get them matching outfits. It's pretty fun. :-)